My panic attack

The world is heavy. The air is thin. Everything is out of focus. Your chest is tight. Desperate for breath (even-ness pls). Your hands are shaking. Your feet feel numb.

Focus focus focus … the world is NOT going to end … everything is OK … are you going to end?

Ambulance?

You are safe … breathe.

Reevaluate life.

Death, would it matter?

Who would care?

Who would notice?

Me!

Am I worthy? Yes!

Focus,

Am I safe? Yes!

Focus, breathe,

Am I overreacting? Probably! (no-yes)

Focus,

Can I see clearly? No!

Focus more!

Breathe,

One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six, Seven, Eight, Nine, Ten …

Focus,

Breathe, (slower)

Touch, talk, listen, see, feel,

Where am I?

Why am I here?

How did I get here?

(Car, meeting, work, bad)

Water,

Breathe,

Touch, car/water bottle/tissue/phone

Talk, reach out/ask for help/facebook/phone call,

Listen, breaths/friend talking/car running/Air con high,

See, focus on phone/focus on tissue/focus on hands(shaking)/focus on feet,(still there)

Feel, safe/focused/loved/appreciated,

One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six, Seven, Eight, Nine, Ten,

Start to drive home, slowly,

Focus,

Breathe,

Touch, car/responsibility/focus/breathe,

Talk, to myself/ focus/ car/ drive home/ safely,

Listen, self talk (no)/music (yes good)- focus,

See, cars/ road/traffic/ home stretch,

Feel, overwhelmed/ safe/ focused/ overwhelmed- you can do this,

Destination, home/ safe/ warm/ wanted/ needed,

home safe,

breathe,

Focus,

You are safe, home, (I built, mine)

Loved, ok, fine, breathing,

Reevaluate …

(Just thought I would share the overwhelming feeling I had this week during my few/yet many panic attacks)

Can anyone relate? Help? Panic attacks suck… just saying

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